Next Monday will be one month since I gave up smoking and one week since I stopped drinking. Used my last piece of smoker's gum yesterday morning. Right now I'm restless and unable to concentrate and feeling depressed. I keep telling myself that in a few days my body and my brain will adjust and everything will return to normal and I know that's true because I've been through this before. But the depression seems worse this time, caused mainly I think by my sobriety and the realization of how much time I've wasted getting drunk and getting through the inevitable hang-overs. I keep trying to think of something I could do that I can look forward to or get some enjoyment from but of course thats the definition of depression - no enjoyment in anything.
I have faith that things will get better, but right now I just wish it was over with.
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